My Turning Point


Man has conquered many lands, explored another worlds, and exploited mother earths resources. I have been to the darkest hour of my life, when ending my time came in to the ridiculous concept of my intellectuality. I have hurdled mountains, swam across the deepest challenges of this cruel and hollow turmoil of agony, which they call life. All these I came to encounter when the bond of family ties was broken. It kept me in the dark for two years, made me live in the stirred echoes along the pathways, with lurking shadows of people whom I came not to know who are friends and foe. With breaths that often tend not to reach my lungs because of sorrow and loneliness, I strode the paths of thorns; cutting me each time I fall or falter a step; thinking nothing but the rage of destroying oneself for failing in this world. Until I got tired, so tired and bored with what the world can offer. I just lie in a place no one would see me, pretending to be satisfied, but deep inside a sense of nothingness. I felt so useless and having not to contribute any sense for being here. It seems like I'm just passing through. For all that I craved for always leads me to failure. All my aspirations which I thought I can achieve all by myself became more and more unreachable. I was like a computer which has been turned on for so long, has been doing huge multitasking, memory over 100%, was running very low on resources and needs to restart. Then, I blacked out. I rebooted, and made a brand new start. I forget and forgive the past, and never to look back. For He has given me hope. He has shown me the light towards true happiness, and I made a promise never to go back to where I was before. I surrender my life to His will, for thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. AMEN.

“For the grace of God has appeared that offers salvation to all people. It teaches us to say ‘No’ to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age, while we wait for the blessed hope—the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ, who gave himself for us to redeem us from all wickedness and to purify for himself a people that are his very own, eager to do what is good.”
Titus 2:11-14

Hope, then, gives us the ability to run towards a goal and not give up, gives us an ultimate destination, and gives us energy when we cannot see anything but the dark.  Our brains will shut down without hope.  We will stop trying. We need hope.  If you are low on hope, then stop. Get it back. You will need it to press on till the end.